Will I ever become consistant at this? Probably not.
Today has just been one of those days.
You would think that the awesome power of God's provision and His proving his love and care for the past two years would prevent a near panic attack, but it is amazing how a single circumstance can cause one to fall and fail.
Today we found out that many of my husband's co-workers lost their jobs yesterday and they are being told today. What makes this all the more difficult to bear is that quite a few of these people are friends of the Hubs and I have met them personally. They are good people.
It is hard not to be cynical and see the world in a dark light when you look at the circumstances. They were told, just last week, that the hall where they work is loosing one of their large contracts that provides bed rentals from outside the county = big bucks lost. So they were warned that layoffs would be inevitable should they be unable to replace these rentals with another contract. Less than one week later, we get a call informing us that there were layoffs despite the promises and despite the probability of another contract. To make matters worse, these were all good staff, full time people who have been at this job a long time. Yet the place of employment will continue to hire and staff part-time employees who are under-trained and lack experience.
Why do jobs like this convince themselves that somehow it is cheaper to staff with people who have no experience and are under-trained?
To make matters worse, depsite the years that the Hubs has been employed, there is a very small pool of people under him to prevent himself from loosing his job. They have mostly staffed with part time people since hey could not afford to hire more full time staff. With this lay-off, that small pool of people is completely gone. In other words, should there be any more lay-offs, the Hubs will definately loose his job.
For the past two years, God has provided in amazing and sometimes, totally unexpected ways, helping us to get out from under a HUGE pile of debt, despite lack of funds and creditors that were unwilling to work with us. So you would think that it would be easy to sit back and wait all of this out, knowing that God would provide even if the worst happened.
But it's not easy. True, we are commanded not to worry, but sometimes it is very hard. I can't help but think of how hard it would be for Hubs to find another job, especially in this economy. Even the CHP, who has had open applications for years, has shut their doors due to the overwhelming number of applications due to so many law enforcement officers and staff loosing their jobs. So how would he find another job? Even scarier is the thought that I would have to find employment. I am four months pregnant. Who would want to hire me?
As difficult as it may be, all I can do is keep the nose to the grindstone, continue to work hard at getting out of the remaining debt we are in and pray that jobs stay secure, despite the circumstances. Please, Dear Heavenly Father, take care of those who lost their jobs and please, please, if it be in Your will, keep the jobs of those at the hall safe and secure.
It's going to be an interesting summer.